This blog started in the spring of 2018, after months of deliberating whether it was a good idea or not. It was a period in my life when I felt utterly confused, unsure what I wanted to get out of life, and if things could ever get better for me. Mental illness was a part of my childhood- so normal that it didn’t even occur to me that I was suffering from it until recently when I hit my mid-20s. and even then it was gently suggested by others and not by me. My nervous, reserved and rather detached self wasn’t just shy, in fact, I accumulated multiple diagnoses over a very short period of time. Depression and anxiety, and a very likely diagnose of Avoidant Personality Disorder (I have yet to get officially diagnosed).
That brings me here, to this blog. Writing has always been therapeutic to me. Something I’ve turned to ever since I was a child to bring me a peace of mind in times of chaos. Usually I’d write fiction and thus allow myself to live the life I always wanted through the pages of a new project. However, now I’m ready to take on the real world and finally scribble down my own story, erase and re-write until it’s absolutely perfect.
My goal with this blog is to open up communication with others overtime, give and recieve support, and simply raise awareness to a cause that is heavily stigmatized in society even today. That we’re able to talk openly about issues such as mental health is important to me. Especially as somebody who identifies as avoidant, because too many of us avoid getting help and therefore suffer in silence, making it impossible for therapists to understand our illness and help us. I will try to be as open and transparent as I possibly can, to try to be a voice for us who struggle with avoidance, as well as other mental health issues.